I’ve always had this relatively set plan for the future, offspring-wise. And now it seems to be falling apart. 

I’ve always wanted to foster and/or adopt. Honestly, I can’t explain why. I grew up around children who were adopted and am friends now with those who were. I follow several tumblr blogs about fostering that have inspired me. They’ve changed my life for the better and make the world a better place. I want to do what little I can to add to that.

The least I can do, when the time comes and I am financially and emotionally able, this is something I really want to look into and make happen.

Reading these foster blogs and knowing what my friends’ parents went through, I know fostering and adopting isn’t the easiest path to take to parenthood.

It’s not the only way I plan on going about becoming a mother, but if I can give at least one child a home that needs it and make a difference in that kid’s life, then I can die a happy woman.

This may all sound super cliche and you may think that I’ll probably change my mind when it comes down to it, but I honestly don’t think I will. 

I’ve seen the good fostering can do and I know that my friends, who’ve been adopted from places such as South Korea, Mexico and several South American countries, - while a couple of them love going back to see where they were born and raised for the first few months of their life - they adamantly tell me they wouldn’t change a thing and their relationship with their parents. 

The more vocal I have become lately about wanting to adopt/foster in the future, the more Ryan has stated his displeasure with my idea. He said that if we were to have kids, he wants them to be his own blood and not someone who could use the ‘you’re not my real dad!’ excuse in an argument. I understand where Ryan’s coming from, but this is coming from the man who has, on more than one occasion, stated his intention to marry me.

I’m not sure I can marry someone who doesn’t want to adopt and/or foster. We’re currently not on speaking terms because of this argument discussion we’re having on the topic.I love Ryan, but I feel as if his reasoning is kinda bunk. If that’s his only reason, then he can handle it and just flailing for an excuse to keep it simple around here.